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The reason I started writing this blog is because I'm very unsatisfied with my college life over here. Although its not the first time in forever  I can't help but wonder  why is everybody else living a life that always seem better than mine inferiority has swallowed me i only got 5- for my audit paper i felt like ive been chewing wax ever since miss yw has told me my results during the ma session i should have told others about my results as they told me that i am the one who got 70+ but no. i didnt do so ha after coming to the college i have felt like i have became thinner not in the terms of body size but the thickness of my mental i have never thought that my mental self could be this weak almost destroyed by the slightest comment of js i told myself that i should read more books but i felt so lonely persons attract the alikes i have to believe that i would be finally living the life that i have craved for through effort tha...

today is christene's 19th birthday she went for the Muay Thai lesson the day before yesterday  her muscles ache  she can hardly walk to the hall to open the door for me  I gave her a cute bag and two loafs of bread  actually  before i went back to the school  I went to the da men mall just to see what I can I give her other than bread  however the husky and the bull dog purse was sold out  I can hardly find other doggy kind of thing to give her  so accept it or unfriend me haha people who recognises me thinks that I'm a quiet person people who knows me thinks that I'm a crazily wild person only people who understands me knows that I kept all my sorrow deep inside Christine's friend posted an Insta story about what kind of boy Christine likes the chat history of them shook me a lot I dont know why I'm that shook by the fact that he is so popular and adored by all the friends around me my mood went down to shit...

I've been sicked of the way how people judged others now especially when it comes to Darren darren is a friend who likes to sing he sang all the songs of joker xue last year when the voice of our school was held I told him and the gang about the event and tell him to take part in it oh what a foolish idea he started to ask for us to get likes on his videos to get the prize I did post a moment to tell my friends to like his video yeah but what I pity about my friend was he never appreciated how much did my other friends worked hard and strived for him just to get the likes and comments on his video they literally dm everyone of their friends or so called begged them to like his video he said he would pay them a meal but ha okay  I shouldn't complain things that has nothing related to me but well he pissed me off like hella shit this Tuesday he was shouting at me so that I will stay dam and get the fuck way off of him but I was just trying to tell them about the c...